just a story: feelings

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curcol, AGAIN

i don't know how to tell you this felling through words. it's all on my head, i had tried it for several time, but i just can't. talking to you is like a war you know. this mouth kept talking badly to you, but it wasn't the truth. the truth is i love you.

i know it was really impossible, and i don't want to ruin our happiness. i'll keep it as it is now, i don't wanna changed it, really. i'll keep it deep inside my heart. you know, loving you is killing me. never in my life i felt this way before. step back before the war began, and its kinda sad actually. never try something that you always want to, but i wasn't blame you. i'm just too scared of losing you.

everyday, seeing you is happiness and also sorrow. there's a part of me that wanting you, but another part is want to see you from the distance. it has no enough courage to battle with the fear. it was the way i felt it now. really, i wanna say that i love you. really really wanna say it. when we played together, laughed, have some fun, it's killing me. when you hold my hands, i know you have no other purpose, but it still makes my heart wanting you even more.

it's pathetic to see the way i love you now. but what can i say? i can't lie with my own feelings, can i?

curcol dikit boleh laaah

SUARA DI ATAS KERTAS

kami bersama bukan tanda kesombongan
kami tertawa bukan tanda kami meremehkan
yang kami inginkan bukanlah pengakuan
suka cita, impian yang selalu kami dambakan

tak pernah kami sebarkan permusuhan
sebarkan kebencian
tapi mengapa justru kedengkian berjalan semakin mendekat ?
menari-nari di atas sebuah penderitaan

sekali lagi kunyatakan
kami disini bukan karena kami jahat
bukan kami benci
tapi mengapa setan seolah tak pernah menyerah
mempertontonkan senyum kebenciannya kepada kami

yang kami inginkan hanya kebersamaan
hanya suka cita di atas kemenangan
tidak fitnah dan juga tidak kebencian

sekali lagi kunyatakan
aku disini bukan untuk menghakimi
aku disini
hanya untuk menyuarakan isi hati

.. well, that's just my little crazy thought about my self, my friends, and my life. so i hope for those who always talk mean things about us, just please shut up ! because you know nothing about us, thankies

main tali

betteeeeeeeeee.......
tarik ulur tarik ulur tarik ulur tarik ulur mulu, emangnya gue tali apa ?

sebel sebel sebel, baru aja seneng dikit eh udah dibikin bete lagi. ah basi banget deh, nyebelin tau ga ! kalo mau tarik, ya tarik. kalo mau ulur, ya ulur aja gausah ditarik-tarik lagi. bener-bener dipikir tali kali ya gue. ah sebenernya maunya apa sih ? gile ya gue bingung banget sebenernya mau dia apa. udah tau gue orangnya plin-plan, jadi jelas ga bisa tegas ngasih keputusan lah. ih sumpah nyebelin banget. baru kemaren kita seneng-seneng, have fun bareng. eh sekarang kayak tai banget deh lagaknya. tuh kan gue jadi kasar. tapi emang lagaknya nyebelin banget. kalo di depan gua aja rayuan gombalnya keluar semua, giliran dibelakang gua aja rayuannya udah ga ada. buat yang lain kali ya. main tali deh lu situ sama cewe-cewe yang lain. who knows ?
aaaah nyebelin !!!!

heart or mind ?

tonight , you have made my tears melted. it was like being awaken from long term sleep. a forgotten feeling that has been long time ago taken from me just back. i don't know what's your purpose. but for me, it is really hard to believe. even though you said that you're honest this time, but it just really hard for me to believe. not because i didn't want to. but i just afraid of the past. it keeps haunted me. sometimes my hearts wanna to believe, but when i used my brain to think about it, it just like saying " no, don't be foolish again ! don't do the same mistake twice " .

to be honest, i like the way you say it. but i don't know why, i just can't believe all of your words. deep down in your heart, i know you're a good person. it's because i know you very well. i just don't care about the others. but when i remembered all the bad think that you have did to me, it makes me kinda hate you even more